A Dark Spot In The Brain

September 25, 2023; the date I found out about the dark spot in my brain. An abnormal growth that provides all the reasons for the symptoms I have been seeing the last few months. Irregular blood test results showing chaotic hormone levels. Intermittent headaches that I had attributed to life stress. Blurry vision that camouflaged as regular eyesight decline. Little did I know, it was due to this little bugger that has begun to grow near my pituitary gland, the central control deck of the body’s hormones.

In many ways, I’m glad to have identified this health blip. I shudder thinking about how long it’s gone by unnoticed, impacting the inner workings of my physiology. It’s confronting to think about how it could have gone by for many more years and made the situation even worse. The only way forward is to get targeted surgery to remove the tumour and do a biopsy to ensure the growth is truly is cancer-free.

I won’t lie, I don’t think I’ve fully processed the news and the idea of having surgery to remove a tumour that’s almost 30 mm wide. I am approaching it the only way that I can, as a third party going through this for someone I know.

Yesterday, I had to call my parents and break the news to them while they were holidaying around the States. I’m guilt ridden from having to break their holiday spirit with this terrifying news, but the alternative was to keep them in the dark which would be worse as a parent.

I don’t know when exactly the next steps will be, but I’ll spend this limbo period waiting to get some clarity on timeline and urgency.